Ok this post is 5 days late, but I finally have ended my 4 month internship at Hanman International. It's probably one of the best experience I will take out of this 3 year poly experience, together with my 8 day trip to Cambodia.

I don't know about you guys, but poly life haven't been fulfilling for me. Outside of school, yeah definitely I have friends to hang out, and hell yeah, we party hard outside. But I can't say the same about friends in school. The petty things that I had to deal with the culture in school, like getting pissed over geeky kids hogging the labs for their DOTA and L4D, or thinking about what to wear everyday so people won't talk.

With Despots and Misfit Ramones, I had plenty of gigs outside to have fun and express myself, but I didn't have a single opportunity to showcase it in school. I still haven't had a gf in 3 years, I had to deal with snobby coursemates and bias lecturers. So tell me what's so wonderful about poly life when every week, I look forward to Friday because that is the only thing that is keeping me from going insane? I'm happy for those who managed to find good friends, maybe even best friends in poly but all I'm looking forward to now, is the day I end my MP and the day when I wear the graduation gown, to tell me that these 3 years in poly is only a stepping stone for bigger and better things to follow in the future. Good thing about it is I only have a few months to go compared to those who are just starting, and feels the same way as me.

Back to my attachment experience, I had done alot of productive work. And work that I can show for. The sort of belief and recognition they give to me, I will miss that feeling. I feed on that. I feed on the things that make me feel good cause face it, we all wanna feel good about ourselves. Honestly speaking, I have never felt more confident about myself until I started working there. So a big thank you to the people in Hanman International who managed to light a fire in me that was lost a long time ago. The fire which is learning, which motivates me and the fire which burns that make me work my very best to hear words like 'Good job' or 'Nicely done' come out from them.

Okay, ranting over. Now I shall start blogging as per normal.